dont know why i suddenly feel like blogging.. lol.. chatted with my dii(gan) very long never chat with him le.. but then suddenly feel very... dont know how to say the feeling.. he say i've changed.. really ma? maybe.. coz i also got thought about it myself.. people do change doesnt it? he say that i last time will care more about him de not like now.. maybe because im doing the coding and chatting with him at the same time ba? or im just making excuses to convince myself that i have not changed at all.. i dont know.. do my coding until sian liao.. trying to complete it as soon as i can.. but things doesnt seem to go it my way.. as in.. the plans to do them.. surely something will crop up de.. i dont know why.. haix.. maybe i've really changed because of someone ba.. or the environment im in? he hasnt changed a bit.. maybe i should say that i dont know how to become the "me" that he used to know anymore.. i cant go back anymore.. i also wish that i could go back.. =( this kind of life also not for human to continue living.. like what i said to di hui.. if i can cut myself i would have done that long time ago.. if i can jump down the building or whatever method to die.. i would also have done that long long long long long long time ago.. what to expect from life? i dont know..
i know im disappointing you a lot.. sometimes things just cant be made right.. sorry for making you worry so much for me.. and thanks for everything.. (:
playing reversi with zhi li now.. damn sian la.. =x
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a warm welcome to your blog ? music players, hit counters, nuffnang ?
